Bad Mood...

Today seem to be a great day in the early hours of it. I thought that having the chance to get some rest at home coz class ended earlier and I need not go for UTAR Ball meeting was a relief. But things cropped up after I decided to finally take a late afternoon nap. My Dad woke me up with my phone in his hand and my 2nd sis was on the other end of the phone...she asked me bout what mom was angry about. I was blur...I thought that I was just one of those troublesome act of hers and I ignored and went back to sleep. The call came again, and this time being fed up, I woke up and went to my mom's room to find out what all the fuss was about.

It appears that she saw sis' sms to me on her phone that read "Don't expect so much. I don't earn a million!" That pissed her off. She thought that it was meant for her and the argument started. I wrestled with her for the 1st time. She was complaining about how she sacrificed her own income for everyone else (duh...like other didn't). I mean all she ever does is sit at home, watch tv, eat, sleep, and complain. What kind of mom is that?!

She was also complaining bout how we ignored and avoided her...Eh! hallo! pls la...who wants to get near you when everytime ppl get near u, they endup doing something 4 u? Whats the best part was the task can be done herself. Ppl around her were like maids to her...sometimes, better still , she come into my room just to ask me to put the cup she drank inthe kitchen when she's heading the same direction!

I can tell you she's just not a good example to her children...to me, most of the time, she failed as a mother. The best part bout her is that she suggests negative solutions to solve the problem like "you know, when i go away from the house/die then everyone will be happy". Man!!! i just hate that. Like that statement will ever help the situation. Sometimes i just wonder if people her age ever change... or rather, if she'll ever change that attitude of hers. It's just so demotivating and discouraging to hear. Is it that difficult for older people to change their views and character?

I've been wondering how come i dont have much control over my student loan compared to others i know...why is it ppl can manage and use their own loans when i cant. Why izzit ppl can put their loans into investment and get returns while i only hav 400 bucks 2 spend each month?

The answer was coz i had to use that money to support the family indirectly while others dont have to. Putting the money into investment may mean that the sum is frozen for a month b4 it can be withdrawn...by then the family would hav been on serious need for money and it's not available...haih


Lord, teach me how can i manage all this...show me your solution to all this...pls help me Lord...in Jesus's name, Amen.


Listening to: Unto You - Patrick Leong